LISTENING ALL CAN CAUSE A FALL
You can do all by yourself, only you can work for you, be the best and forget the rest
‘THE HOPE CLINIC’, Psychologist, Dr. Fokeha, 32, Stadium road, Sargodha.
From the window of her office, Mrs. Shah read the board expressionlessly, THE HOPE CLINIC she muttered THE HOPE. Mrs. Shah was much disturbed and tensed for her daughter who have been changed a lot in the last two years and is in an awkward mental state from the last 10 days. The silence in the room broke by the phone bell, hey mom Anna has locked herself in room again, she is not answering at all, come home soon
Anna, sweet heart open the door, your mom is here for my sake. The door banged, Anna rushed and hugged her mother, everything will be fine my kid Mrs. Shah said with a heavy voice
Pale yellow expressionless face, swollen eyes and uncombed hair, Anna entered THE HOPE CLINIC, so hopelessly. Not knowing what to do, ask people again for her life decisions who can help her now or keeping it all to herself like she has been doing from last 10 Days, trying to make it all right, murmuring, full of subdue expressions trembling, looking for an anchor to have some support she sighed ahh again a new person, a new talk
WHY I, Anna sat on the nearest bench while Mrs. Shah approached the counter, for a second Anna became attentive when a child sitting beside her asked his mom of what is written on that colorful board
‘GOD DOES NOT WRONG THE PEOPLE IT IS THE PEOPLE WHO ARE WRONGING THEMSELVES’ (Al-Quran)
How one can wrong oneself, do I wronged myself? Anna let’s get into the room, it was the voice of her mother
The room was a full of bright lights ,serenity all around ,Anna had a deep breath she felt some sort of relief ,a positive vibe after so long .A young lady was in front of her welcoming her with a warm smile ,her sparkling eyes and powerful gestures captivated Anna at once ,what is your good name pretty girl ,Anna
Come here let’s have a seat Anna, what would you like to take tea or a coffee let me guess you will prefer a hot chocolate instead am I right? Anna was so much into her that she nodded in positive response. She hold Anna’s hand .Sensing the tears in Anna’s eyes Dr. fokeha continued without a pause , how pretty eyes you are blessed with Anna ,looking into the sparkling eyes of her Anna lost control and burst into tears her grip on doctor hand firmed .
RELAX MY DEAR, THROW OUT THE TRASH YOU ARE CARRING, THE GRUDGES, THE FAKE PEOPLE AND REATIONS, THROW OUT ALL THE NEGATIVITIES AND EVERY TOXIC THING YOU ARE CARRING, SPEAK UP ALL, SPEAK IT UP SAY IT ALL.
Wiping her tears she looked at her with innocence I will but if you promise me you will not ask me what to do now, I am already being experimented , opting what people asked me so have made myself lost I wonder if it is really me ,I was
Calm down sweet heart I promise I will not, giving the cup of hot chocolate to Anna Dr. replied
Anna took the first sip and said I am not happy with me, I have done all wrong to me I have been manipulated. I have lost me .I used to be an enthusiastic, I had the power to conquer, I have lost it I have lost it all .All by giving my rope in the hands of people. Do people really matter? No they don’t you can’t be happy if you are not at peace by your own, whatever who ever do or say
What let you think such ANNA , doctor interrupted ,I met a class mate from my school two weeks ago I found her relaxed, calm I found her smiling by heart ,I found her the way I wanted my self I found her the way I thought is not possible in this age and after , the way children are, happy ,satisfied and at peace I found her more determined and enthusiastic then she was ever before , I was happy to see such changes in her she used to be much dull during our school days , I complimented her she offered a Verse
IGNITED AND KNIDLED BY MY DESIRE, BRIGHT BEING MADE THROUGH MY FIRE
PERSUADED AND ENTHUSIASTICALLY I FIGHT, KNOWING GOD HELPS THE RIGHT
She told after she failed in the medical school test she left it all their and began to work for her dream ,she opted fashion designing which she really wanted to do from her childhood and one become sincere to oneself dreams change into reality.
Her words woke the me, provoked me to think where I lacked I What I have done to my life, I had a deep analysis of my life , my family loves me , I have everything other than the profession of my own choice , I adopted my profession on the opinions of the people , I am getting good grades even , I am praised by everyone ,they agree with me , it makes me happy for a while even if I was not happy truly but this is not done am I really meant to be here , is pharmacy is really I am made for ?? I never wanted to be here , will I be a competent pharmacist , why I relied on peoples talk ?why I wasted two years of my life ,will I be to excel in this field with such dumb personality not even accepting it as a carrier ?
I have wasted myself I could be a best lawyer, even if I couldn’t be the best one it would be happy, I would not have lost myself, my spark, my courage I could not be this much dumb today, so depressed, I would prefer death over such kind of life in which I am just breathing other than living it the way it should be
A silence, was there Anna has busted, she herself felt relief away from them both, Mrs. Shah was sitting, she was shocked much and trying to keep her self-composed
Anna continued putting the empty cup on the table, I was a bright student but failed in the entrance test, it broke me somehow, I was demotivated a bit I talked to people my family my friends my relatives, they agreed on my hard luck, sympathized me and asked me why not to choose pharmacy as a career, all the remnants of entrance exams enter that way why not me? I paid for their words and started pharm D still after two years with a concept not by choice but by fate.
Mrs. Shah didn’t hold herself back she rushed towards Anna ,with the tears dripping on her face she said in pain we are all your culprits my daughter , you can do whatever you want we are always with you ,just want to see you happy. No mom ,ANNA wiping the tears from her mother face said the fault is mine I depended more on others thinking than my own ,I vanished my own views I lost my own personality this way I should have learned it I should not have wanted people to be very agreeable it would have saved me
Dr. Fokeha interrupted, let’s not lose hope Anna, life has not ended yet you can do it today YOU CAN DO, it’s time to fly, you have found the way to master your problem, your fears. It is human psychology , being called as a social animal he tries to fit in others glass slippers ,instead of shattering his own cover and embracing .Any transition is easy if you work for it yourself ,,you have got to teach yourself to take over the world yourself , be the first you , believe in yourself ,stay true to yourself ,be courageous be an example for others my girl
LET’S OWN THE NOVELTY OF YOUR OWN
DISPLAY PURITY, MAP THE PERSONALITY INBORN
FEEL YOUR IMAGINATION, SPEAK TO YOUR SOUL
FEEL THE THRILL, TAKE RISKS TOWARDS YOUR GOAL
CATALYZE THE CANNONS OF CONSCIENCE AND CONFIDENCE
LISTEN TO YOUR SELF AND SAY GOOD BYE TO DIFFIDENCE
NOVELTY RESIDES NOVELTY ALWAYS EXIST
IT IS WE FRAGILE HUMANS WHO DO NOT PERSIST
Anna read aloud the verses from the nearby painting. When she paused Dr.Fokeha said I do not say of being selfish, listen to all love and pay them regard but first consider yourself. Be self-sustained and self-sufficient. Let’s agree on it you DO NOT WANT PEOPLE TO BE VERY AGREEABLE AS IT SAVES THE TROUBLE OF LIKING THEM A GREAT DEAL ,, when there are too many opinions there is actually no opinion, you will not be able to get what is good for you ,you will not be able to plan it yourself , your own personality, your own identity will be lost somewhere and you will waste your own time, your decision might not be right but you have power to make it right because it is yours as Quaid e azam has said
I do not believe in taking the right decisions, I take a decision and make it right, think a hundred times before you take a decision but once taken stand by it as one man
Mrs. Shah added ‘suno sbki kro apni’ this is the key to success besides hard work
I am tired now says Granma, yawning, here the story ends, my child, Zainab
Zainab Granma’s most favorite grand child who have just passed through the same stage of being failed in entrance test exam to medical college and know from that day she was gathering sympathies from people making them agree upon that what happened is not good and asking them now what she should do
What happened next grandma, did Anna leave pharmacy? Does she started law? Asked Zainab out of excitement.
It does not matter, said grandma, what matters is, what you get from the story, grandma stared at her with her pretty smile, waiting for a response.
Be brave and courageous take time, make decisions of your own and stand by it. Crowd makes no brain left, you lose your own opinion and vision in crowd, we could not build understanding, so it’s kind of waste of precious time and energy. We do not need people to be very agreeable as it saves us the trouble of liking them a great deal.
Granma hugged Zainab and said; it takes nothing to stand with a crowd but it takes everything to stand alone. Grandma was happy to see the spark back in zainab s eyes, GOD bless you my child.
Contributed by: Zainab Shahid